• On Marvin the Album

    I came here bang out 2500 words on one of the best birthday presents I’ve ever received: the 30th Anniversary release of Frente‘s Marvin the Album on vinyl. I was going to talk about how it was the first album I ever bought myself, on cassette, from the long defunct Music World in Coquitlam Centre.

    But then I realized I would never finish it because I would have so much to say about how important it was to me, how well I know the songs, and how they would be the band I want to see the most, out of every band in my 1200+ CD collection. I would probably bawl if I’m ever in the same room as Angie Hart as she sings the first line of Girl.

    I would also have to talk about how they’ve more or less disappeared from my life, as their second and last album was released in 1996. Even though I was scouring the early internet for singles and EPs long after that for b-sides and covers, I don’t think I’ve actively thought about them much over the last 20 odd years.

    Of course, Angie’s band Splendid appearing on Buffy the Vampire Slayer was a huge deal for me. I also liked that record, plus all of Angie’s solo work that I’ve listened to. But Frente as a thing was in the past for me, and not actively on my mind as a band that I missed. It’s just been so long since they were an active band.

    When I heard about their reunion shows in Australian when Marvin turned 20 (?), it had already happened. At that point, I thought I had missed my chance to see them. I was disappointed, but as I said, having not been actively thinking about them an ongoing concern, it garnered little more than a shrug and “too bad” from me.

    So earlier this year, when I mentioned to Danica about how I would like Marvin on vinyl, being on my nostalgia binge brought on by the 30th anniversary tour that Sarah McLachlan did for Fumbling Towards Ecstasy (which is the other album that hold this level of importance to me), I didn’t even bother looking to see if it existed. 14 year-old me would’ve been disgusted. 34 year-old me would’ve understood.

    I soon found out it existed though: on my birthday this year, when I opened up Danica’s present to me. There it was. And IT WAS SIGNED! Splendid. Newly 44 year-old me was absolutely delighted.

    But even then, I didn’t listen to it right away. I had birthday drinks to go to that night after work, and seeing a small group of my friends in person, something that is fleetingly rare these days, was still how I was going to spend that evening. Between that, the resulting hangover (well-made cocktails still slap), a pub quiz (more friends!), and some leftover work stuff I was itching to get done, I didn’t really have a chance until last night to take a trip down memory lane.

    When I finished up my part of Eliot’s bed time routine, I went into my office and ripped opened the plastic. The cover and linear notes were familiar, but not exactly the same as the what I was used to on the cassette and CD. And I was really familiar with the linear notes on those formats for this record. Really familiar. I didn’t have much recorded music of my own when I was in high school, so the albums I had, I knew every part of them.

    I dropped the needle on the record, switched the input on my amp, and put on the connected headphones. The crackle comes through. Just in time. And then Angie: A girl is the word / that she hasn’t heard. Oh I was so back.

    It’s not that I haven’t listened to that song and album on and off over the last decades — I just haven’t listened to it with such deliberateness in a long time. That’s what this whole vinyl thing is for me, to listen to music intentionally as the only thing I’m doing, to literally put the needle on wax and wait as the right groove is hit and sound is produced. Latency is a gift.

    The first time though was jarring. Girl sounded exactly as I remembered, with a bit more crispness on the vocals due to the listening format/environment. But when I was expecting the end of that to go into Labour of Love, it went to Accidently Kelly Street instead.

    You see, this version was effectively the original Australian release, with the original running order, and the Bizarre Love Triangle cover tagged on the end. The US/Canadian version I was used to had a different running order, as well as a couple of songs that were swapped out. I was familiar with 1-9-0 and Out of Sight because I had heard them from other releases, but they weren’t part of the Marvin experience for me, so they felt out of context when they came on.

    But a different set of songs and running order didn’t materially alter my experience. I was still listening to Marvin the Album with intentionality for the first time in years and years. And everything I loved about it and them came flooding back.

    It was magical. Transcending. The nostalgia sweet spot was worked with precision.

    So of course I googled them afterwards to see if they did a tour when this was release a couple years ago. And of course they did. Last year. Australia. I had missed the chance again. But this time, I was bummed. Really bummed.

    The google tunnel led to their socials, and then a glimmer of hope: they were working on new music! So maybe, in 2025, a reunited Frente (probably just Angie and Simon Austin?) might need to do some promo for a new record, perhaps some small shows in their native land?

    The dream is not dead yet.

    Anyway, where I was? Yeah. I don’t have time to write that post. Instead, I’ll just say thing:

    I love music and Marvin the Album fucking slaps.


  • On Oasis, Nostalgia, and Monoculture

    Oasis was not a huge band in Canada. Wonderwall was a big hit, but they were largely just another Britpop band to all but the British people who moved here. Part of that is because they didn’t really become a thing in America, where they were more known for the antics of the brothers Gallagher than for their music. Growing up in the 90s, they could’ve easily passed me by, growing up in Vancouver, not materially more relevant than Kula Shaker or Spacehog.

    But for me, that wasn’t the case, because all my best friends growing up were *super* into them. Like, “scouring the import bins of HMV or whatever record store was in town for the B-sides” into them. Definitely Maybe, (What’s the Story) Morning Glory?, Be Here Now, and the aforementioned B-sides soundtracked many car rides and marathon Dreamcast sessions.

    In my small friend group, the release of Be Here Now, was a huge deal, even though everyone agreed that D’You Know What I Mean? was a bloated mess. When Liam finally wrote his first song, Little James, on Standing on the Shoulder of Giants, we all said “nice try.” I even knew the names Meg Matthews and Patsy Kensit without having read a single British tabloid. So despite where I grew up, Oasis was a thing in my life.

    And the funny thing is, back then, I didn’t even like their music. I’ve probably said on a number of occasions about how their songs were simple and boring, or went on about how big of a asshole Liam is. When Manchester City was relegated to Division 1, and then Division 2, I laughed so hard. And yet, I couldn’t get them out of my life. The songs off those first two records, especially Definitely Maybe, were drilled into my brain.

    Musically, trad-y rock bands just wasn’t my cup of tea, but a not-small part of my disdain for them was simple teenage contrarianism. All my friends liked them, so I’m going to go out of my way not to. But as I got into my 20s, my tastes expanded, and I grew fonder of all of those familiar songs. It got to a point where I couldn’t deny that their blend of straightforward songwriting, mind-numbingly basic lyrics, and a knack for melodies and killer choruses actually make a pretty compelling package. They don’t live up to the hyperbolic boasts of Noel and Liam, but as a mainstream rock band, they did what they do really well. I liked them enough to go see them when they finally came back to Vancouver in their later years, and genuinely consider myself a fan.

    So when Noel and Liam announced they were getting back together for a tour next year, something in me clicked, and I felt compelled to fly All Around The World (heh) to see them play their native land, where they were legitimately massive, one of if not the most representative band of an era of music in the UK that was literally named for it. There are very few bands I’d do this for. There are many other bands whose music I like a lot better that I wouldn’t do this for.

    That’s because to me, Oasis were more than a band, more than songs. Not in an “oh their music was so special to me” sort of way, but more because they were an integral part of my formative years, and the thought that I could relive a small part of it was incredibly compelling. On top of that, to be able to experience their reemergence amongst other people for whom Oasis were also an important part of their growing up, sharing OMG vibes, it’s not something I could pass up.

    Make no mistake: this is absolutely a nostalgia hit for me, one that is increased by a factor of 10, as I’ve never experience Oasis as part of a monoculture before. In my life, they were huge, but for most of the people around me (save for my friends), they were just another band. No more important than Travis or Pulp. It’s analogous to (association) football, really, where being really into it here in Canada is kind of a weird, non-mainstream thing, but totally normal and mainstream over there.

    Like if a British NFL fans goes to the Super Bowl: what if your niche interest at home was the biggest thing in the world?

    Having gotten tickets to one of the Edinburgh shows means that I get to experience Oasis with a bunch of 40+ year-olds who also vividly remember Euro 96. And I suspect my motivation is not dissimilar to many of the people who braved the ticket buying mess and scooped up one of 1.2 million tickets sold this weekend for one of the their reunion gigs in the UK and Ireland next summer.

    People didn’t fight the internet and fork out their hard-earned money in a cost of living crisis just to see some band play music that was big almost 3 decades ago. I suspect that many, like me, want to reach back in time to experience a piece of their past. It’s not (just) about the music, man.

    So all of the online takes from people with no fondness or connection to Oasis, about whether the tickets are worth it, or whether they deserve all this hype given their uneven output as a band, are totally missing the point: all of us want to go back to 1995, to a time when Manchester City sucked ass (among other things), even if it’s just for one night. Artistic merit or worthiness doesn’t even come close to factoring into why we want to see this so badly.

    It doesn’t really matter if Blur had a more consistent catalogue, or if Radiohead had a greater influence on music. They aren’t Oasis. 1.2 million tickets sold, with many more wanting to buy them, is proof that they are like no other band of that era. Being away for 15 years surely helped with the demand, but the hoopla grew organically, without much lead time or marketing. The demand is there because Oasis is just different. Don’t make this old man explain it to you. IYKYK.

    Oasis was a thing in the 1990s. A massive, massive thing. At least in the UK. If everything about the 90s are coming back now, shouldn’t the self-proclaimed biggest band in the world be part of that? And for at least for a couple of months in 2025, they will be.


  • On Mobile Observability, the Niche of Niches

    Hi. It’s been like 9 months since I last posted. Two young kids, one with special needs, will do that to you. But thanks to recent bed time routine changes, I have some enforced time out of the apartment and in front of a computer every night for the foreseeable future. So what am I going to do with that time? Navel-gaze. First, lets go meta, in an unnecessarily long and winding way, as is my style.

    The worst thing about ADHD for me is my incessant need to learn. No, that’s not right. It’s my incessant need to go deep in interest areas that is beyond reason for a neurotypical person. Not only do I like niches – I LOVE the overlap of niches, a good deal of that interest owing to the possibility of discovering something new, to gain novel insight simply because I’m examining well-worn paths through new lenses.

    Football finance and Watford FC? I can never hope to achieve the level of expertises as true experts in those areas, but when you slap two circles together of folks who are interested in each, the overlap you get will be tiny. And that’s where you’ll find me. Hi: I’m your Venn diagram intersection.

    This is perhaps why I do what I do for work. How well do I know Android? Decently well in some areas, passable in others. Experimentation and data analysis? I know enough to get by. Mobile app performance? OK, THERE I can claim some specialized domain knowledge. What about collecting perf and stability telemetry on mobile devices in production? Well, that’s just I’ve been doing for the last 9 year for money.

    Well. If each of those related topics are a circle, I’m at the centre of that overlap, and overlap that has its own name: mobile app observability. To say that my work experience and domain knowledge makes me suitable for the field is a given. Whether I’m good at it is up for debate. I think I am pretty OK, but I’m a bit biased.

    What’s not up for debate is that spending time exploring this niche of niches is so absolutely my jam. Measuring and improving mobile app performance in the aggregate, whole-user-base level, and deriving insights from that, is such a challenging, fascinating, and impactful problem to solve. To me anyway. Not only that, it gives me the opportunity to go DEEP in a subject area, something that, due to life circumstances, I’m generally not able to do for fun these days. So what do I do to scratch that itch to deeper than deep? Work. I’m sure my employers don’t mind.


  • On Talking About Football Finance on Social Media

    It turns out that 280 characters of not carefully worded chunks is not a great medium to talk about football finance. Specifically, getting folks to understand what you’re trying to say requires a level of precision that I’m not willing to invest when firing off takes on a mobile phone, especially when there is an opinion embedded in said takes that some folks don’t agree with.

    This began first thing Friday morning, when I checked my email to see that Companies House has sent me a notification about Watford registering a new charge. It turns out that the club had arranged loan with Macquarie in which we get an immediate cash injection secured on the remaining payments for Ismaila Sarr due from Olympique Marseille over the course of the next couple of calendar years.

    I yawned, fired off a tweet about how I was surprised we haven’t done it yet and wondered what we needed the cash for, then didn’t think much of it. This is the type of transaction we’ve been quite used to given the aggressive loan repayment schedule and our revenue and cashflow being dramatically reduced thanks to relegation. Getting what football finance expert Kieran Maguire calls “posh payday loans” is par for the course: we need cash now, so we’ll pay a bank like Macquarie a cut of those future receivables in order to get the money now so we can meet our financial obligations. It’s not great, but this is what a relegated club has to do if it wants to pay down debt as well as field a competitive squad.

    The next day, right before the Leicester game, I saw some concerns online (or what I perceived as concerns) about this, and how the club (via Scott Duxburry) said over the summer we’d be debt free by the end of the year, and taking this loan out puts into doubts the validity of that statement. I, perhaps stupidly, replied (this was someone I followed and whose opinion I respected) saying that this wasn’t a new loan per se, just exchanging future receivables for a smaller lump sum now to get additional cashflow for whatever reason.

    What followed was odd. I had a couple of people relying to me, apparently annoyed at me for saying this wasn’t a new loan. One of them was has been replying to my posts for a couple years at least, always with something critical or nit-picky to say. If you’re a Watford fan on Twitter, he might have done it to you too. He kept saying I was wrong without actually addressing my points, and then started his usual tone-policing. He even corrected my grammar on an unrelated posted for improper conjugation on a collective noun! The last straw came when he replied to another tweet I sent asking folks to mute or block me if they don’t want to see my tweets (thanks, algorithm), saying I was playing the victim card. I then took my advice and blocked him so he won’t ever have to be annoyed by my arrogance or whatever. Funny thing: his replies probably made the algorithm inject more of my tweets into his timeline, which made it more likely he sees tweets from me that he won’t like. Like Thom Yorke said, you did it to yourself.

    The other person replying was actually pretty reasonable. He said I was wrong for saying it’s not a new loan, and he’s right. I mean, it’s a new charge on Companies House, so of course it’s an new loan in the technical sense.

    What I was trying to say that it’s not as if Gino rang up Macquarie and got them to wire £10M that is secured on something we don’t want to part with – like Vicarage Road. This is a new financial obligation, but we already know how we’ll pay for it – the future transfer fee instalments for Sarr from Marseille. We don’t have to find new cash to pay for it – it’s already on the books. It matters that the security isn’t Vicarage Road. Now THAT would be a problem, as defaulting on a loan like that means the stadium is Macquaries. This? The worst that can happen is that Macquarie takes the legal rights to those instalments, which is effectively where that cash is going to anyway.

    What I *should* have said instead is that in my opinion, this new loan isn’t something I’d be overly concerned about given this specific charge will be settled by payments owed to us from a Champions League club over the next two years, which is pretty safe IMO given that Macquarie is also willing to accept it as collateral.

    The reason I said what I said is because if someone concerned about the club’s financial situation reads that “Watford has borrowed £10M from Macquarie”, they might have a bit of a panic. And rightfully so if this means we are adding to our financial burden materially. But knowing that we are a club that has cash obligations greater than what we bring in, partly due to debt repayment to this very bank, I’m not surprised that we need money due to us in 2025 right now.

    I was expecting this, in fact, given Scott said we’d be “debt free” by this year’s end, which I take for clearing the refinanced consolidated loan from Macquarie that was once worth £50M, and it doesn’t include payables or Gino’s loan. The club, like me, was imprecise with their language, and as a result, has drawn the ire of some fans, much as I have, to a much, much smaller degree.

    So what did I learn? Be very, very precise when talking about technical details of something that people feel passionately about (Watford FC). If someone can blow pass your general sentiment and focus on aspects that you have verifiably gotten wrong, they will, especially when they disagree with your general sentiment, which I’d much rather they focus on instead. Whether this is or isn’t a loan isn’t the crux of what most people will have a problem with – whether we should be worried that Gino will piss this money away instead of paying down debt and effectively add to our future financial burden is.

    For me, I’ll need to see more to be worried about this, like splashing out £10M+ for players in January, or refinancing the existing Macquarie loan to extend the payment schedule. If those things happen, then I’ll inch closer to the panic button.


  • On 23/34, Success, and Expectations

    Let’s get my spiciest prediction out of the way: if Valerien Ismael keeps Watford in mid-table or above and stays out of the relegation fight all season, he will finish 23/34 as the club’s Head Coach.

    I could very well be proven wrong before Christmas, but the vibe I get is that expectations from Gino are at the lowest it’s ever been since he and his family took control of the club. Recruitment has been sensible and frugal, focused more on the out-goings than the in-comings, and there’s been no insinuation of promotion being our ambition this season. Ben Manga talks about having a 5-year contract and hoping to be in the Premier League by the end, so this doesn’t seem like a one-year project for him or Gino.

    This is why I believe that success this year for the club from management’s perspective won’t be defined by whether or not we are promoted. Given that, I think Ismael will be given more slack than any previous Watford head coach under Gino in terms of achievements on the pitch. It’s not that the owner’s trigger will be any less quick – it’s just that the criteria that he will judge Ismael by will be a lot different. Simply put, I believe mid-table will be good enough this year if his other expectations are met.

    What may those be? Perhaps consolidation in the league with a lower budget? A distinct playing style? Growth of young players? A star emerging that can be sold for a big fee? Not being in a relegation scrap? Look, I can’t read their minds, but for me, while I don’t dare expect these things, whether or not we achieve them will be how I define success this year. And the single biggest litmus test for success this year for me may be this: if Ismael is in the dugout at the Riverside on May 4th for our last match of the season, it would almost certainly have been a successful season to me, one that must have resulted in some manner of progress for the club and the players.

    But no, I don’t expect that we achieve most of these things. My only expectation is that Watford plays at least 48 league and cup matches. Aside from that, I can see us achieving none of these things given how the last two years have gone. Part of me knows it’s not rational, but I’m just steeling myself to be hurt again. The first match against QPR, the one that all the pundits have us winning handedly? I think it’ll be a draw. Not because of some thorough analysis of squad strength or how our tactics match up, but just pure, unbridled pessimism.

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    Phew. That feels better. With Watford’s Championship season kicking off merely hours away, I’ve purged my bad vibes with this post. I’m ready to be hurt again.

    Come on you ‘orns!